A couple of weeks ago, I walked into Synergy at 5:30am to Rob’s “Good morning Sunshine” and instead of my normal response, I plopped down in his office and just started crying. Poor Rob – Coach, Trainer, Therapist, “One of my girls,” and a true friend – He sees it ALL. I was in pain and couldn’t understand what happened to the progress I’d made over the last 15 months. I was feeling pretty defeated and like no one could possibly understand how both physically and emotionally painful this set back is for me. In typical Coach Rob fashion, he gave me some sage advice and asked me to write a blog about my set backs because, “It’s real life.”
From 2011 to mid 2013, I had gotten much healthier and was in great shape, so I was devastated when my car accident restricted my ability to work out for almost a year. I gained at least 40 pounds and felt like I was back at SQUARE 1. Let’s BE CLEAR, I am NOT one of those girls that can work out 3x a week and eat healthy and stay in shape. It takes work. At any size, I have been very active, able to do yoga, and run around in stilettos; after my accident, I could do NONE of these. For me, this was unacceptable!
When Rob and I started working out, I took breaks between exercises within a set and often times, I would have to sit on the floor and stretch before I could continue. But I WOULD NOT QUIT – I persevered! There were days I would work out 3 times a day, once with Rob, once in the pool, and then cardio. I was on a mission. From the end of April 2016, only 3 months out of surgery, to December of last year, I made huge strides. I dropped weight, was able to regain some of my balance, and could workout without taking breaks! I could see the light at the end of the tunnel!
During my recovery period, I have been plagued with a lot of emotional life changes. I am going through a divorce, I lost my career, because of the extended leave of absence, and I was/am (2 years later) in a horrific lawsuit with my car insurance company. So, I threw myself into looking for a new career and working out. After several months of looking, another of Coach Rob J’s Real Warriors, Steph, helped me find a new career I LOVE! Her team at Hire Ups is AWESOME! I was finally feeling like I had gotten my life back! Within 3 days of being back in an office environment and sitting, I was in excruciating pain and absolutely ready to give up. You know that saying, “a body in motion, stays in motion?” Ummm that’s TRUTH right there!
Due to the pain, I went to my surgeon and received less than stellar news about the future of “my back health.” My last few sessions with Rob had been emotionally taxing, because I had lost a lot of my agility, balance, and stamina. The biggest deterrent for me, the pain. I was/am scared of the pain that is waiting for me with every workout. I told Rob through tears, “I just can’t do it (I have never said this phrase to him until that day!), I am just so frustrated.” He let me cry and rant and curse a little about the uninsured driver that changed my life and then he leaned across his desk and said, “I’m sorry Sunshine, but you can do this. We just need to go back to what we know works. Baby steps.” So here we go, BACK to the beginning…For the record, I HATE BABY STEPS!